It's official. Besides one more outing where we're taking the senior high kids on a boating trip, we are officially done as youth leaders. We have handed over the reins and look forward to the next chapter of our lives.
But what does that chapter look like? I've been doing youth ministry for over 8 years and I'm used to knowing what God has called me to and what He expects from me. It's been a long time since I've felt that searching feeling and earnestly seeking His guidance and leading in where I should be serving.
I'll be honest, part of me doesn't want to get involved in anything. But I know that's normal for the time being. I need to time to sit back, relax, and refresh. I know my desire to get involved in some sort of ministry will return. Not only do I believe that we are called to serve in some way, but it's part of my personality. When I am a part of something [like church], I usually want to take on some degree of responsibility.
But I want it to be more than that. I want God to give me a passion for something like He has for working with kids. I want to feel like what I do makes a difference. I want to use my gifts and abilities. I want to feel the joy that one feels when they truly doing what they are called to do.
All of this is my current prayer. I am a firm believer in prayer and know that God answers prayer, but in His own time. So, I will try to be patient, enjoy this time of rest, and look forward to what He has planned for me [and Don] - whatever that may be.