Monday, April 12, 2010

i kept writing

As I mentioned in my last post, I kept writing during my break from Sunshine on my Shoulders and dealing with breast cancer. I didn't know I was going to do this. My diagnosis hit me so hard that my initial reaction was to retreat from everything, but after a couple of days, I realized I needed to write. Along with my experiences, I wanted to record my thoughts and feelings. I found it very therapeutic. I could type out what was on my mind and didn't have to keep it inside of me.

Besides my family, I don't know if anyone is interested in reading what I've written. Most of the posts are short as they are just quick thoughts. If you do read it, I suggest that you go all the way back to the first post and read forward from there (it will make more sense that way.)

You can find my cancer blog by clicking here.

I started it out with this post...

CANCER - That ugly 6 letter word. That word I’ve feared for most (if not all) of my adult life. That word you never want to hear from your doctor. The word that was used today in giving me the results of my latest round of biopsies. Cancer.

I have been diagnosed with Ductal Carcinoma In Situ (DCIS). Now starts a new journey, not just for me, but my family.

At the moment, I’m overwhelmed emotionally. I’m sad. I’m afraid. I know other emotions will follow. I want to have this place (this blog) to record my feelings, my thoughts, my progress, and my insights as I travel down this road.

I believe life is a journey. I’ve just encountered a bend to my road that I wasn’t expecting and one that I definitely didn’t want to have to negotiate - ever.

8 comments:

Just Mom said...

I look forward to reading about your journey.

Mommy, I'm Home said...

Thank you for sharing this. I am so glad you are "back."

Heidi Jo said...

wow...you are brave on so many levels. but writing is very theraputic---and hopefully will help you make some sense of your journey!

Karen said...

Diana, I'm at a loss for words, reading your journal and all that you went through. I can only imagine your joy and relief to come out on the other side of this, healthy and well and with the best possible news. I appreciate and admire how honest you are in sharing your fears and deepest feelings. Especially the pink coat. You wrote beautifully about that experience.

I'm soooo glad you are well, and so very glad you're 'back'!

MightyMom said...

wanna hear something "funny" ironic might be a better word.

when you left suddenly, right after saying you were benign...I knew it was breast cancer. believe me or not, I knew.
when you asked me for prayers....the truth was I'd been praying for you for a month already.

and I continue to do so, dear friend.

Amber said...

Oh my goodness. I had no idea. I am soooooo glad you will continue to write. Hugs and prayers to you and I will be following your journey every step of the way.

Melissa said...

I think it's great that you wrote everything down. Sometimes I think it helps me put things in perspective when I can read and then reread my thoughts. And who knows? Maybe your words will be something someone else needs to hear.
So glad you are doing better.

Momma Roar said...

I need to write too. I don't always get to as much as I'd like, but it is the only way I remember what happened. And I remember lessons learned better if I can write.

I'm glad you are sharing your writing about your experience.